Sigh

I'll tell myself  In a confident stupor You're doing fine, you're so much better you haven't been writing,  And you know you only do that when you're narrating battles between mind and demon.  And in turn I laugh the laugh of the merciless wolf. You know the writing never stops you know the devil never sleeps / especially not in a playground  as stimulating as your mind -H April 29, 2020

And when I hear your name I feel this thudding in my chest / Hearts trying so hard to escape and feel each other's embrace. -H February 2020

Hello I've never met you Not in this physical life But I felt you And I miss you A cry for the day that we will never meet Except maybe up in the skies You are my love I await to see you, dear. A cry from Mommy. -H March 15, 2020

My head is always churning, Converting ideas into molten fragments  Condensed into tight parameters  Only to be read by no one. - H April 26, 2020

I can feel my heart strings tugging Every time I think of you I smell your smell, I feel your arms, I crave your touch, These phantom feelings I am not so fortunate to currently have. I feel myself physically hurt from how much I miss you "Baby you knew this was going to happen, this is what long distance is like". No I didn't. I didn't sign up for distance I signed up for you. -H 4/25/2020 I'm so drunk I can barely walk but somehow I can still write and publish poetry.

I used to hunger for your embrace Crave it, love it, need it. But you hold me now And I'm suddenly realizing that I can't breathe. -H April 21, 2020

Don't know what I'm fearing the most The demons you've invited to my head The thunder of your fists Or that despite all this, I'm still the fool who loves you -H April 21, 2020