I was shaking with anger when I wrote this

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You know you hurt me 
And I know you feel bad 
But don’t dwell on it baby, 
We both know I don’t have time for tears
They get in the way of this sinister plan. 
Baby did you know I’m a sociopath 
Gonna make you pay for what you lack. 
/
Here’s my advice from me to you 
From the wisest soul you know 
If I were you, & I was smart
I’d be fucking terrified. 
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We’re both water signs 
But that won’t help you put out this fire you’ve started in me 
I have it out for you 
I will watch it all fucking burn,
Burn all the spillage you caused my heart to bleed. 

- H 
September 2019

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