I pretended I didn't mind but that was obviously bullshit

I don’t know how the fuck you took the air from me,

Because I’m so comfortable with suffocating.

So used to the pain, the lack, the absence, 

That it’s made a nesting home deep inside of me. 

Black to red to white then blue,

Crying rivers just for you.

I was the unforgiveable, the ultimate and unforgettable,

Made weak, all for you. 

Valued superiority, in bed and conversation,

I like being in charge, making your eyes turn soft. 

I am hard, cold cut and icy steel,

How the fuck are you the one to make me melt?

See I’m used to hurting,

Just alone when no one can see it.

But you’ve impaled, I can’t hide it much longer,

I fucking miss you. 

-H

May 25, 2019